Monday, May 19, 2014

I'm gonna miss school! Today I first had my driving lesson, it actually went great. Then later on I had this session with a counselor, and it also went great. I'm feeling quite good right now. Even though I have loads of homework and assignments that I have to do.. Like these are my last assigments.. I will miss school, a lot. I haven't really enjoyed these last couple of years of high school, mostly not my class really. Nothing wrong with the students really, but I still feel like a misfit.
Luckily I have my friends! They've been so important for me and made me actually go to school with a smile on my face. I don't know what I'd do without them. That saddens me, like, these last couple of days will be the last time it will be all together. I don't want that good bye.
Somebody that has graduated and still miss high school?

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

A new beginning?

I have a lot of visitors everyday.. I kind of feel ashamed that I haven't blogged in a long time, but to be honest, I haven't been feeling good. But I want to share some news to you, and also just get some things off my chest. I'll be seeing a psychologist, and I feel hopeful, but also scared. I kind feel like finally, and just the thought of talking to someone about things, makes me instantly a little happier. Hope is very important, and when you go without it for a period of time, you start to feel numb. I feel like I'm at that point, where I feel numb. Things doesn't really matter to me any more, and it's scary.
It's also scary that I've agreed to actually change. I feel scared to talk to someone, because I'm a mess. I've bottled up so much inside of me so I feel like I'll burst soon. So just the thought of sharing my most inner thoughts to someone is dreadful. Because I haven't really opened up to anyone. I know this all is going to be hard, but I hope it's worth it.

I actually look forward for the future..