0 Let's talk about (K-)POP

Hi guys! I've been thinking about doing this post in a long time.. About.. K-Pop! I've heard some new songs this and the last month that I'd like to blog about. Let's go. (this post was supposed to be up in August, but I have moved and stuff..)

So the first song I'm going to bring up, is one I just heard. It's called Mamma Mia and it's performed by the lovely Kara. As some of you may already know, I love the group Kara, and I think it's sad that two of the members left. Anyhow, I like the new one. Even though I wouldn't say this is one of their greatest song I still think it's very good and catchy. I also like the dance, it doesn't feel like anything new though. So I'll give it 4 out of 5 pandas.

The next song I have chosen is Red by Hyuna. I was actually disappointed by this song. It's a boring concept - sex. :( I don't like the song at all, especially the hip hop sound. And the video is also horrible. Because it's about.. sex. I really dislike how K-pop has been going to that direction more and more. Here's a bit from the lyrics "Every night, you think of me like spicy ramen
Come in first if you like me" ... "Everyone stop, I’ll punish you so stick out your butt
You won’t be able to handle me every night".. So I'll give this song 1.5 out 5 pandas.

The last song I have chosen is Touch My Body by Sistar. It's a bit similar to Hyuna's song, or, only the concept. But I do found this song a bit catchy and not as raw as Red.The lyrics isn't also as raw. The video is OK, but I'm not sure what I think of the booty-shaking, it seems a bit awkward, a bit forced. It doesn't look so smooth, anyhow, enough about butts. The song is catchy, and it makes me wanna dance, so that's a plus. I'll give this song 3 out 5 pandas!!

0 Rest in Peace

Isn't it scary how short life is? One second you are brought to this world and the next you're gone. It's so sad and tragic what happened Ladies Code, I really thought Rise would pull it off. Luckily they'll have each other in heaven. Rest in Peace RiSe and EunB. My thought and prayers goes to their family and friends. Thank you for everything you've brought to this world.
Fan: "Which member do you want to take care of? The one you feel uncomfortable leaving alone?"
RiSe: "Eunbi!"

0 Photo summary

So what have I been up to lately? Just a couple of days ago I was in Uppsala, with my cousin and her man. We were visiting my brother whom lives there. We strolled around town, visited places worth visiting, like museums, the old church, in other words; we explored the town. I love Uppsala, I've been there many times and I think it's my favourite city in Sweden. Anyhow, here comes a photo summary what I have been doing this and the last month. From prom, to gradution, to Uppsala. I chose not to upload any photos from Stockholm because I couldn't find them.

Can you spot me?? One tip.. I have a yellow-ish dress.

My hair got messy from the Cabriolet. My dress is from Yesstyle.

BBQ-party with friends. ♥

GRADUATION! Dress also from Yesstyle.

Pictures from Uppsala. Uppsala castle. :)

The church.

Uppsalas first University.

Beautiful grave from the church. Hope you appreciated the pictures and the post!

0 Like woah

So, a lot has happened during these weeks I haven't updated (awkward, I thought I had updated in June.. but nope). I have graduated from high school and oddly, or not oddly, I miss school. I miss studying, being in class, but I miss my friends mostly..
Right now I also miss home. I'm in Stockholm, Sweden's capital. It has been fun, but I feel pretty exhausted and all I want to do is to lay in my own bed, pet my cats and spend time with my family and friends.
I'm pretty unsure of what I'll be doing now during the summer, and after. A guy called me and said that they had an apartment for me. But since I'm unsure if I'll study or not I had to decline his offer. Luckily if I decide to study, I can always stay with my brother for a while.

1 I'm gonna miss school!

Today I first had my driving lesson, it actually went great. Then later on I had this session with a counselor, and it also went great. I'm feeling quite good right now. Even though I have loads of homework and assignments that I have to do.. Like these are my last assigments.. I will miss school, a lot. I haven't really enjoyed these last couple of years of high school, mostly not my class really. Nothing wrong with the students really, but I still feel like a misfit.
Luckily I have my friends! They've been so important for me and made me actually go to school with a smile on my face. I don't know what I'd do without them. That saddens me, like, these last couple of days will be the last time it will be all together. I don't want that good bye.

Somebody that has graduated and still miss high school?

0 A new beginning?

I have a lot of visitors everyday.. I kind of feel ashamed that I haven't blogged in a long time, but to be honest, I haven't been feeling good. But I want to share some news to you, and also just get some things off my chest. I'll be seeing a psychologist, and I feel hopeful, but also scared. I kind feel like finally, and just the thought of talking to someone about things, makes me instantly a little happier. Hope is very important, and when you go without it for a period of time, you start to feel numb. I feel like I'm at that point, where I feel numb. Things doesn't really matter to me any more, and it's scary.
It's also scary that I've agreed to actually change. I feel scared to talk to someone, because I'm a mess. I've bottled up so much inside of me so I feel like I'll burst soon. So just the thought of sharing my most inner thoughts to someone is dreadful. Because I haven't really opened up to anyone. I know this all is going to be hard, but I hope it's worth it.

I actually look forward for the future..

0 In about a week..

What are ya'll cons regarding traveling?

In about a week I will be heading to Belgium with my class. I'm actually pretty excited, we will be staying in Brussels, the capital of Belgium. But I do wonder how the whole experience will be, my class is a bit bipolar at times, but I guess I'll just have to wait and see. It will probably be fun.
There's one thing I'm worrying about; food. Since I don't eat meat I'll probably have to special order things and such. I don't know, but it's a bit annoying. Already here in Sweden there are so many food options that passes just because they contain meat. 
It feels like there's a lot of things going on. Right now I'm looking at universities and such, I'll apply tonight I think, my primary pick will be musicology in Uppsala University.

Brussels at night!

Beautiful buildings~

0 Sorrow

Much have happened since I last updated this blog..
Firstly, the biggest school project for us seniors is done. The project was about writing a report about a subject we got to choose ourself) and if we don't pass, we won't be able to graduate. So it's a big deal, so I have been busy and stressed over that project for a while, but it's all done now.
The second thing is.., my cat passed away this Monday. It feels crazy. I had that cat, Murre, for 15 years. 15 years of a friendship. We got Murre when I was 3-4 years old, I don't even remember a time without him. Now when he's gone it feels like a big piece is missing. These last couple of days have been the worst of my life. I've never experience death or losing someone.
And please don't think that he was "just a cat", he was so more than "just a cat". I don't even like when people talk about animals like that. Murre was one of my best friends. He has been by my side through all the bad and all the good times. And he has helped me a lot, even though I can't pinpoint on what he has helped me with, all I know is that I always felt loved by him. I felt pretty lonely as a kid and with him by my side, life felt easier.
We really had a special friendship. When I was going to pre-school he always used to walk me to the cab. Later on he used to watch me in the hallway before  I went off to school, like these last years of school. He used to follow me around, especially if I was outside. He sometimes followed me to my friends house. And almost every time I used to sleepover at a friends house he started to act strange, like sleeping on my mom's lap, which was something he never did. Murre was spoilt and also the biggest diva ever, he had a big personality. Very stubborn, not that friendly always lol, disliked other cats and he loved food. But he was also very sweet. So if he liked you, you better feel special.
Lately I've had some weird mood swings. I feel happy for one second, and the next I feel completely miserable. I don't feel like doing anything, I'm just laying in my bed. I've never cried this much in my life. The nights are the worst. Seeing my bed empty hurts, knowing he is not under the bed, or on the couch downstairs hurts. I'm still looking for him yet I know he is nowhere to be found. This all hurts so much. I've experienced feeling I've never experienced. Like missing someone so much it hurts.
Me and my family didn't loose a cat, we lost a family member and one of our greatest friends. My dad, that doesn't even like cats has been down. He rarely expresses he's emotions either, so it feels weird to see him sad.
It was my decision to put him down, and I feel terrible.. He became sick during last week, and it became so bad that he couldn't even eat or drink. He lost so much weight, started to smell bad and got snotty. I felt like then, that he was too old to be saved. 15 years is pretty much for a cat. The vet said saving him would be impossible.
I am now writing these last sentences with tears rolling down my cheeks, I just want him to know that; I miss you so much, and I love you so much. I'd do anything to meet you again. For me, you will never be gone. You might not be here, but you will always live on in my heart and mind. I love you so much. And we all miss you so much. ♥

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2 Cosplaying!

I was thinking of cosplaying last year, but it didn't really didn't went through. But now I'm thinking of cosplaying Talim from Soul Calibur. She was and still is one of my favourite characters from the game series, and she does look slightly like me.There's only one thing I have to do if I'm going to cosplay as her, become fit. And I'm unsure if I'm going to buy or sew the costume. I looked on ebay it was pretty expensive, so I think I have to sew it. I was also wondering if anyone was going to recognize me, but then again it's a convention, there will probably be someone.. It's a nerd-get-together. And yeah. Have you ever cosplayed? :D

I'd probably need circle lenses..

4 So what have I been up to?

Two thousand and fourteen still feels kinda fresh. So what have I been up to? My brother just left, so now it feels like I have some time for myself. I've been spending time with my siblings as much as possible when they're were home. I've been playing a lot of video games with them, such as Minecraft, LoL, Hearthstone and not to forget; The Sims 3 (which is my latest addiction). 
I've made a family containing 2 sisters, one is party animal whereas the other one is very down to earth. Can you guess who is who? I really love the sims, I've been playing it since 2000, and I was 5 then! I'm a pro sims-gamer.

0 Happy New Year & Welcome 2014

Hello! I haven't posted here for a while. I haven't really been busy.. I really don't know what I have been doing. Except spending time with my siblings now when they came over for Christmas. Do you have any resolutions? I have, and it's pretty simple; To be happy. But it might be a bit hard to achieve but probably totally worth it.
Today I stayed home from school, didn't feel that great. I have btw come up with an idea. :D Yesterday I got a mail from a company that's filing for bankruptcy, and they are selling their stuff super cheap. It's Japanese-related stuff, cute stuff, lol. So now, I'm making a big order on clay and other implements. I'm going to try to make my own deco stuff and then sell it, maybe on stor envy and/or different conventions. It might be better to start of with conventions, then when I've earned a little I can turn to storenvy. A jewellery in the same kind of style I'm planing to do:

I've noted, my years on conventions that you can make real good money because people are willing to spend. ;)) I've been one of the spenders. I don't think I'll take that much over price, but I have to win on it also but it isn't all about the money. I'm not only going to make jewellery, but the rest you'll see. It's fun though. Something new and fresh, a good idea in my opinion. And as always, click on the photo to for the source. :)