0 Cosplay~

I'll need circle lenses also..

Me and a couple of friends are going to NärCon this summer, NärCon is a pretty huge convention here in Sweden. I really feel like cosplaying, I haven't done it before though. I don't know which character I'm going to choose, I want it to be as perfect as it can be, almost. There's one character I've been considering, Azusa from K-On!, I think she'd fit me, especially with the tan! Since my skin colour is a bit dark. Her personality is a bit similar to me, also both like music, we aren't that outgoing, we are a bit shy and we love to eat. <3 You also don't need so much to this cosplay, you can sew the uniform by yourself, even though that's going to be an adventure itself. The only thin I think I'll need is a wig, and some buy shoes. (◡△◡✿)

3 Short hair

For a long time, I've felt the eager to do something with my hair, colour it, cut it, just something! But I really don't know what, I'd like to have a bang also, but it feels a bit risky, because if if look bad, it's going to look bad.. (งಠ_ಠ)ง My hair is pretty worn out since I relaxed it, so colouring would damage my hair even more, but it wouldn't ruin it completely. I'm not quite sure if I'd fit with short hair, my face is a bit round and heart shaped, and I tried to make my hair look short, and I didn't fit with it. Anyways, I've find photos of some short pretty cute hairstyles. I don't know what I should do..

1 Getting things off my chest

My bad updates have been depended on two things. School, school is actually the main thing, but school - homework, and then school. I've to be honest. This year, or these 2 years in high school have been rough. It was good from the beginning, but I do regret changing my class completely. But even though from the beginning I felt lonely. Stressed out and lonely. I know it's normal to feel a bit lonely and off, but it is definitely not normal to feel it this often. At times I feel glad, and the next second I feel like crap and I just don't want to live, kind of.
I'm pretty shy, around certain people. I don't know why, but I have become more shy now than before, especially in my new class. I feel like such a misfit. Every day feels like a challenge. Honestly there are so many days I just feel invisible, it's so hard. I hate this feeling, even though I'm around people I feel invisible, even though I'm around my friends I feel lonely. If it wasn't for my friends I really don't where I'd be now, if I'd even be here. Now, I don't want this to be this depressing post. But I thought I should be honest. I know I'm not alone about feeling alone and invisible, we shouldn't keep all these feelings inside of us. It's important to address and take up these issues also.

Anyways. This is why my updating have been pretty lacking, I haven't lost my motivation to this blog, I really love to blog. But my motivation isn't on top some days, but I'm trying my best.

1 Model!

I like modeling and fashion a lot, I'd like to do it myself but I feel like I have 0% control over my body, when it comes to posing and stuff. But that isn't really what this post is going to be about.
I'm currently a program about fashion, so I'm going to list my current favourite models. I really can't  rank them since I really think you can't compare them. This list was pretty hard to make, there are so many beautiful people out in the world! I actually think everyone is born beautiful, or/and everybody has the capacity to be beautiful, both inside and out!

Fei Fei Sun

Nicole Fox

Chanel Iman

 

Jourdan Dunn

 

Who's your favourite model?

4 Late Sunday

Hello! I've been a bit busy this weekend, on Friday me and my friend had a The Sims 2 LAN party, we played till the morning, so it was loads of fun. Then on saturday I spent the whole day (what it felt like) on putting together my new desktop with my mom! It took about 4 hours, but I love it. Now I'll have to do my german homework.

Here I'm now sitting & blogging. ^^

2 Shopping!

So, on tuesday I was shopping with my friends, it was fun. Here are some stuff I bought. I also bought a pair of jeans, but I didn't take any photos of them. I also read a comment yesterday that they will shut down google friends, or google reader. That's sad, as a blogger, I think that's the greatest tool to read/follow/find new blogs. I need to start using bloglovin again. Also, my spring break is soon over and I have so much homework left.. Ugh. I can't wait to the summer! Btw; Follow my blog through Bloglovin

1 News

Okay, I've been pretty busy today. I've spent the whole day at my friends house, it was so much fun. We played hide and seek (lol, we're 17-18 years old). It's like three in the morning, but I can't sleep now since I'm scared. First of all, 1-2 years ago someone broke into our house, and that have caused me sleeping problems, and today, someone had called us 3 times without saying anthing, except the last call, when someone just said goodbye. Now, we received these calls about some hours inbetween, I wasn't home, but it's scaring me, as fudge.
But anyways this is not what this post is going to be about. I wanted to write about a hot topic, news, the situation in the world, today, or, as right now, tonight. Just reading the news, usually makes me sad, but it's bugging me especially right now. When all I read about is this "war situation", mostly about NK, SK and the US. It makes me crazy, sad and so mad! The thing that bugs me the most is that how some leader of a country like NK have the control of all of their citizens, it's not like they want war, the leaders wants war, or in this case the leader. If they do something to the US or SK, the citizens will be affected. Those with money, the leaders will in one way get the least affected, the most affected will be the citizens. Just the thought of that makes me even more crazy, we have enough of wars going on in this world right now, we don't need another one, and we won't never need another one. It makes me so depressed to think about all the losses of precious life's we lose every day in crises like;wars, starvation and economical situations. It's not fair. There's no life in this world that is unnecessary, and not just among human beings.
It makes me so sad to live in a corrupt world like this. This world is crazy, everything is about money, money gives people power, which is nuts. Living life, should be about love, loving each others and ourselves. Now, everything seems to be about hate and darkness, much seems so shallow. I know, and I do try, to appreciate all the small things, but it's hard to be positive when you're surrounded by so much negativity. I do believe in love, I believe that we can achieve peace with a change of many minds.
I know this text, by a 17 year old frustrated girl, won't change anything, maybe the mind of someone, but I just have to write it off, or else, my brain will go insane.